Knots

Giving up on you and us

Not the game of love anymore

Dices and ladders are fallen

Hardly, deep on the shore...

You were, are, will be a lie

But can find us everywhere

Still thirsty, hungry for you

It's different what we share...

Shining like a star like diamonds

In my sky of love, life and ways

Shooting in the space of tears

Searching for you and solace...

The promises and death vows

Are holding, tying us with cuts

Deep with blood, flesh and pain

You are with me like knots...

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Dear Robin,

You seem to be happy. After what happened, what you did, how you made me feel - how can you be happy? This is something which you did to me few years ago, but the marks are still fresh, the pain remains and my heart breaks everyday.

You did not even look back or give me your hand to make me stand again. We promised to live and die with each other. I thought that our love will be like of Johny Cash and June Carter's. Kind of 'forever'.

But, you changed everything. You left me crashing and my forever dream turned to falling glass. The shattered pieces gave me cuts. The kind which look like knots.

From Sarah.

Some Pleasures

When I look at you

Resting in my tomb

The pleasure of the touch

The pleasure of your kiss

I miss the vulnerable you...

My lost life is my lost love

The names I remember

Are the pleasure of my memories

You gave up some flowers

Which you left on me...

The soft tender touch on my lips

Make you take me in

You smell so sexy and paralyse

Paralysed from my love and pleasures

The spin of your desires hold me...

Catching my breathe and softness

You pull me in the coffin of pleasures

The toll of your touch make me disappear

In the soil and hardness of earth

I rest in my tomb forever...

With you my love, forever.

With you my love, forever.

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To Jake,

I wrote this poem for someone who made me fall in love. Made me realize that the real me can love someone like real you. The relationship we shared had its ups and downs where you also taught me to hold in. 

I was 19 when I left you alone. I left the world. The loss of the world was less than the loss of my love. And with those final words, I went forever. Buried where we thought of building our home. 

I still have my heart where you reside. I still have the feelings where you breath. I am still in the sleep to dream about our life together. I still hold you within me. The only downfall is, I have stopped breathing.

From, Vivienne.

Another Birth

Our memories are so close to me
But we were never meant to be together
For your lyrics you may win a Grammy
Accepting the fact that you don't bother...

My heart is bleeding and mourning for you
We did so many crazy little things
Nothing about everything seems to be true
Tears is what our future together brings...

Knowing the fact for you I am no one
The night awaits to fall down on me
In the middle of this mess you left me alone
You have everything but no love to see...

Feels like I am a joke for what I said
You are a horizon which never meets the earth
But will keep you where I am laid
With a wish to belong in another birth...

Second Chance

Don't come and go
Like you always do
Stay with me for me
Coz you belong to be...

Turned out a wrong judgement
Love is not an investment
My heart is stitched and sewed
You turned out to be a shrewd...

I don't feel faithful anymore
Breaking down at the sea shore
Ashamed of myself with pain
No one to notice my tears in the rain...

Sand is slipping out of my hand
Lost the moment for a band
Can we have the last dance??
As love won't give me a second chance...

Moment of Change

Tell me everything you quench for
Values, Strengths and Opportunities
Weakness, Habits and Sexualities
I want you to ask yourself
Before its too late to share
No lies. No cries. No byes
Its forever, wherever and whenever
Simple desires and wishes
Compensation every possibilities
Slowly definitely killing me
Love, loving and being ain't easy
It's smoke, drugs and pot for me
Boozing around shouting casualties
Feeling future, death and life
Stop, Hold, Demolish the grounds
With cold and masochistic behavior
Moving commotions boiling out
Constructions, Destructions, Sections
Formation of the young shattered heart
Lonely, Slowly, Finally mending
It's my soul which is asking
What, How, Where, Who, Which is me
Breaking rules and regulations
Realization for a Moment of Change...

Shine

In the depths of your eyes
Crossing all the impossible skies
You are my vision
To be with you I need no reason...

Can't breath if you are not here
There's nothing if you are not near
I am lost and with no direction
For me it is not fiction...

Your voice is a tonic
I think I am a maniac
So much obsessed with you
Want my life to be new...

Just past the memories
With all thank you's and sorry's
You will never be mine
Like dew my tears shine...

Wishes & Dreams

When you think about me

You just want me to go away

And never read my letters

Which I wrote for the better...

Were you there with me?

I don't think so ever

With the bloodshed in my eyes

In the form of tears and your lies...

Was searching for the truth

But for you I was always a joke

You will never understand

I blew away like a strand...

I was always here

It was you who left forever

In the place with hate

With an unwanted fate...

The hunger of love

Is eating me like hell

The night have overturned

All my wishes and dreams are burned...